If I Stay Thoughful Thursdays

Ok, next to TFIOS, If I Stay is possibly one if this generations best tear-jerkers. Much like The Fault In Our Stars, this book makes you cry and gives you feels emanating from nowhere else but the center of your soul. This basically means that this book is like 9 out of 10 one of the greatest books out there. Why not 10 out of 10 you ask? Well, because the book itself was very short and to me was an easy read but however managed to fit an entire person’s life into a 300-something-paged book.

I will however say that it could have been longer and could have done better on the tear department, simply because the movie’s trailer made me ball out crying. (Not exactly ball out; just shed a long tear down my cheek). But I am getting ahead of myself, let me give you guys the rundown:

17 year old Mia is on the verge of dying after a terrible car wreck kills her parents and little brother (I will not give spoilers at this point just so you know), she is now in a ghost form watching as if she was up and about only she is watching as a ghost. As she is in the hospital (both in ghost form and coma-induced human form) she sees the rest of her family and her friends (including her amateur rock star boyfriend: Adam). In small groups they all see her in her coma induced state (she listens in and watches as a ghost) and each of them are telling her that they want her to stay alive because though she has lost her family she still has other family that loves her and needs her.

She finds out soon enough that it is up to her on whether she lives or dies, it is unknown how but she will somehow have to make a choice: will she move on and see her family again? Or will she stay?

This book also gets into her life in small flashbacks and memories that displayed after a symbol before each major paragraph as if it was a cutaway into a memory which is what I predict the movie will be like. But these memories I believe are the real tear-jerker; the creators of the story, it makes you want Mia to stay but also makes you indecisive as to whether it is right or not for her to stay alive. It is like you want her to stay but how will she live with herself? There is so much heart and sadness and joy put into this book by Gayle Forman and I must admit is an absolute masterpiece. The writing is beautiful and she describes the pain of losing a loved one so vividly you would feel as though you have had your heart ripped out and thrown away by such pain. But then that pain diminishes with the heartwarming love that takes place between Mia and her loved ones, including her musically talented boyfriend: Adam.

I won’t get too into it because it is midnight and if I try or even attempt to describe how amazed I am that this book covered so much ground in the relationship of Adam and Mia and of how many sparks flew when they shared their moments, I will have been rambling on a keyboard with no definite point.

So case and point, this book is amazing and the movie itself sound and looks amazing, therefore I shall see it, whilst bringing with me a box of tissues, hopefully I still have some left over from when I went to go see The Fault In Our Stars.

Sincerly,

HR

If I Stay Thoughful Thursdays

Ok, next to TFIOS, If I Stay is possibly one if this generations best tear-jerkers. Much like The Fault In Our Stars, this book makes you cry and gives you feels emanating from nowhere else but the center of your soul. This basically means that this book is like 9 out of 10 one of the greatest books out there. Why not 10 out of 10 you ask? Well, because the book itself was very short and to me was an easy read but however managed to fit an entire person’s life into a 300-something-paged book.

I will however say that it could have been longer and could have done better on the tear department, simply because the movie’s trailer made me ball out crying. (Not exactly ball out; just shed a long tear down my cheek). But I am getting ahead of myself, let me give you guys the rundown:

17 year old Mia is on the verge of dying after a terrible car wreck kills her parents and little brother (I will not give spoilers at this point just so you know), she is now in a ghost form watching as if she was up and about only she is watching as a ghost. As she is in the hospital (both in ghost form and coma-induced human form) she sees the rest of her family and her friends (including her amateur rock star boyfriend: Adam). In small groups they all see her in her coma induced state (she listens in and watches as a ghost) and each of them are telling her that they want her to stay alive because though she has lost her family she still has other family that loves her and needs her.

She finds out soon enough that it is up to her on whether she lives or dies, it is unknown how but she will somehow have to make a choice: will she move on and see her family again? Or will she stay?

This book also gets into her life in small flashbacks and memories that displayed after a symbol before each major paragraph as if it was a cutaway into a memory which is what I predict the movie will be like. But these memories I believe are the real tear-jerker; the creators of the story, it makes you want Mia to stay but also makes you indecisive as to whether it is right or not for her to stay alive. It is like you want her to stay but how will she live with herself? There is so much heart and sadness and joy put into this book by Gayle Forman and I must admit is an absolute masterpiece. The writing is beautiful and she describes the pain of losing a loved one so vividly you would feel as though you have had your heart ripped out and thrown away by such pain. But then that pain diminishes with the heartwarming love that takes place between Mia and her loved ones, including her musically talented boyfriend: Adam.

I won’t get too into it because it is midnight and if I try or even attempt to describe how amazed I am that this book covered so much ground in the relationship of Adam and Mia and of how many sparks flew when they shared their moments, I will have been rambling on a keyboard with no definite point.

So case and point, this book is amazing and the movie itself sound and looks amazing, therefore I shall see it, whilst bringing with me a box of tissues, hopefully I still have some left over from when I went to go see The Fault In Our Stars.

Sincerly,

HR

Here’s Some Good News and Some Bad News

Today was average; well it started out good at first but turned into total shit storm after a certain event.

This year is my senior year and I am graduating soon. Now nothing is more important rhan graduating. And what better way of graduating is there than to have all your friends and family there t support you?

Now in this case I do have my family and they will be there. However, my dad won’t be there. Now there is no serious issue or anything, it is just that him and his wife (my stepmother) doesn’t feel comfterble going because of my mom being there. So he calls me, tells me that he can’t go for that reason, and then he invites me to dinner AFTER graduation. Now I don’t know if you guys have felt this way before or if this sort of thing has happened to you, but if you ask me this was beyond messed up.

My dad looks at it as him and my stepmother avoiding my mother, when in reality, they are avoiding me. All because I moved out of there house back in  November to move into my mom’s (For my own reasons). The day I moved out made my step mother angry and she has been taking it out on my dad for the past year or so. I have appoligized to her, I have called her and texted her and it just wasn’t eneough to calm her. My father gets most of her shit so I try and defend him for not being there so often because I love him; I mean after all you only get one dad.

Anyways, he called me and told me the bad news. He just expects me to understand but the truth is I don’t. Afterall I only graduate once and he just wants to miss it beacause it makes my stepmom feel awkwardn or will get him into a fight. Fuck that, he should care about his son, not of what others think, I have put up with this bullshit for the very last fucking time! I’m sorry if me draining my emotions on the blog makes you uncomfortable; but I am not ready to talk to anyone else about this.

I jsut wish my father knew that even after the bullshit, even after all the stress of moving out, and even after all the shit I do to try and make him proud… I still love him. I could care less if my step mom comes, I just need him there. Why can’t he understand this? I don’t know… I’m just blogging my feelings; I would mch rather do this than talk to my mom or anyone else. Becase all they give me are insults at my father, not help. No gives help, just more guilt and bad feelings. All I need is a listener and some comfort… that’s all I ask.

Sorry this turned into a bad news thing and contained very little good news. I just needed to let that out.

I had a job interview today, another pointless shot at impressing my father.

I much rather would have a job than none at all; it went well so hopfully they will give me the job.

It is at a Macy’s as a Sales Ascotiate (I dunno if I spelt that right… shut up, jk :p) I am just glad I did that today, even if impressing my father is pointless now. I’m now doing it for me and my gf; no one else. My father matters to me, but right now I am having trouble swallowing his bad news. Oh well; thanks for reading, or reading halfway, whatever it counts. I’m just glad this did’nt go unnoticed.